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This is my blog, where ill be posting lots of art and blogs and music i like, as well as looks sometimes.

My Interests:

My feelings

I'll be updating this maybe everyday or every other day, but heres how i feel. I feel like music is such an incredibly beautiful thing that makes us distinctly human in a way; a lot of other species have mechanisms inside of them inherently made for the function of music, but we had to make instruments and all this because we just wanted to produce the sound we wanted to hear so badly and make it real. its part of the reason why i love music so much, besides the fact i genuinely fundementally cant live without it, or i genuinely get really depressive.

General

I love being surrounded by nature, and i love being outside. My favorite thing in the world to do, besides draw, is probably listening to music while being outside in nature. I also love making music, even if im not great at it, and i really enjoy learning how to be better as a musician. i play the ocarina, kalimba, electric guitar, and keyboard, but as my main instrument (and instrument i've been playing longestg, i play the cello. i enjoy going to senior homes to perform for them; i really enjoy doing things to try and uplift others. It might sound corny, but it really costs nothing to be kind. i also am deeply enthused by birds, so ornithology, and i have a special interest in bird wings and how they function. i also have a special interest in researching all musicians/bands i really love, and i really love finding new music, especially in the goth scene. On a similar tangent, i enjoy doing trad goth makeup and dressing up to match, as i feel beautiful and truly myself when i'm all dressed up. i just wish i had anywhere to wear it...

Music

I LOVE music. my favorite bands and musicians are Type O Negative (obviously,) Enigma, Smashing pumpkins, pantera, pierce the Veil, Modest Mouse, Toy-Box, KMFDM, Sting, Insane Clown posse, Neutral Milk Hotel, Alex G, Bluescreen, caelum bliss, Linkin park, Green Day, 100 Gecs, Gorillaz, The Fray, Sweet Trip, Boa, Lady Gaga, Mindless Self Indulgence, Weezer, Machine girl, Ween, the RAH Band, Beck, Abandoned pools, and thats all i can recall for now. My fav songs right now: Work by Forth Wanderers, Glamazon from Rupaul's Drag Race, September Sun by Type O Negative, You Are My Baby by Kimya Dawson, Nitemare Hippy Girl by Beck, Flourescein and Clone High (theme) by Abandonded pools, Caraphenilia by pierce the Veil, Mad about you and Moon Over Bourbon Street by Sting, the too much song by lemon demon and thats all for now

Movies/Shows

My favorite movies are Catch me if you Can, Carrie, pet Semetary, The Truman Show, The Omen, the Evangelion movie series, Watership Down, Frankenstein, Godzilla (Minus One and Son of Godzilla), Mr Fantastic Fox, Isle of Dogs, and The House. Ask me about any of these movies, i'd super love to talk about any of them, since i have a lot of feelings on most of these. most of them are my comfort movies that i go to watch. My favorite shows are Salad Fingers, Death Note, Kevin Spencer, Smiling Friends, and Rupaul's Drag Race, and My little pony . just like my favorite movies, these are my comfort shows i go to watch when i'm very sad or just wanna feel cozier. i used to be obsessed with FLCL and Evangelion, and while i admittedly dont care for them as much as i used to, they influenced me in a lot of ways during my childhood, through my artstyle and music taste.

Blog

01.05.26 BDAYYYY!!!!!! sweet 16...

Today was my birthday. it was a really nice day, honestly. yesterday, since my mom would've been working along with the rest of my family on my actual birthday, we decided to celebrate a day earlier. My mom and sister spoiled me rotten :) i got two tops and a pair of jeans, all of which i love. i got quite overwhelmed at the mall, with all the horribly loud music and the lighting, it just bugged me out. i got really close to not talking because i kind of just needed a minute, but my mom was patient with me and it made me calm down. then after we went to an outback steakhouse, i got french onion soup (so so yummy, the onions where nice and sweet) as an apetizer, then i got steak and lobster with brocolli and mash after. then we all had desert; i got a brownie with a scoop of icecream on it. sooo yummy. then today, i got to stay home since my mom said i dont have to go to school if i dont wanna.. and who wants to go to school on their birthday???? so, i stayed home. i tried to sleep in but my dad knocked super loud because i wasnt picking up any calls and it scared me awake lol basically i had to go to the doctor, so i did.. and i kinda sat the whole day at the doctors office, it was so busy in there. since the wait was so long my mom took me to get lunch with my dad. i got a californa roll at teryaki 1. yuck. no. absolutely NOT it was horrible. there was a random fish bone?? in my roll?? mind you not even a crab bone???? anyway, it made me so nauseous... but it was fine, i went back to the office and along the way saw a guy playing the flute. hell yeah and then anyway i got checked up, was probably the worst part of my day to hear i gained 16 pounds in a few months, thats honestly just ridiculous. but i always fluctuate in weight and constantly go u and down, im just hoping it naturally goes back down soon as always. stupid fucking doctor ordered me an HIV and clymidia test if thats how you even spell it, because he didnt believe im not sexually active.... like ok what ? but i guess its understandable i figure teens may not always be honest when it comes to that and doctors issuing a test anyway regardless of their client's answer has probably saved thousands of lives. anyway, got home and got to call my sexy awesome cutesie handsome hunky boyfriend for a few hours, and my sister came home from work with this yummy fudge cake, it was good but wayyyyy too rich... and i didnt wanna comlain because i'm really grateful i got a cake at all but its tradition for me to get oreo icecream cake every year for my birthday and i think her and my mom mightve forgotten. still, im so grateful to have had a slice :) thats really my dayyyyyyyyeahhhhhh im typing this at 1 am so 1/6 has already technically started.... dreading school tomorrow ￣へ￣

01.06.26

Today was is my first day back to school in maybe a month? its been going pretty good, im in biomed right now, its 12:41 as i type. i really missed being around my schoolfriends, not being around them makes you think they might dislike you since you can't really percieve tone in the same way through text, but coming back, everything was just normal, laughing about silly shit and just rambling. i definitely missed school.. even if i dread class sometimes. will update later after school :p. editing at 4:52 pm, school was pretty great but i'm definitely gonna be a bit behind in work, from all the days i missed before christmas break.. i had the stupid flu (* ￣︿￣) i took this algebra 2 test that i was genuinely convinced i wouldn't have to take since the marking period is almost over and i missed so many days, lus i didnt even study... basically a month off of school and i didnt study once ....... ╮（╯＿╰）╭ we had this lady in health last period who was warning us about breast cancer and telling us how to like detect it so they bought out these fake breasts with little lumps in them we had to feel for but i honestly got lost in the sauce and was just squishing it the whole period i lowkey wanted to steal it but im an angel and i dont steal anymore \(^人^)/ anyway in algebra a friend reminded me we agreed to hang out after school so after school we went away from school to feed my favorite pigeons nearby but we finished feeding them pretty quick and had nothing else to do so we just took the bus and train to my home and got some boba at a cafe and he got me my fav nesquick (strawberry) too as a VERY late birthday gift. <( ˘︹˘ )> all jokes lol i had lots of fun though i havent hung out with anyone in years and it was just really fun and enjoyable. pretty great day though :3 ive been having the time of my life lately, i just feel generally happy but im expecting a massive mood crash soon that usually comes after i feel this way because its so hard to maintain a regular mood for absolutely no reason. still excited for whatever the day brings tomorrow...... even the physics test i've really gotta study for right now lol ...(*￣０￣)ノ

01.07.26

it's 12:37 AM as i type this.... im doing stupid spanish homework god i genuinely cannot stand spanish as a class... then ive gotta study hard for physics give me a break bbruhhh (￣﹏￣;) im really hoping that test wont be too hard physics is seriously NOT my strongsuit ahahahaahhaa idk ill figure it out like always >:) i always fail classes so hard when i get a sligthly higher fail than usual it brings me to a pass anyway ill be fine LOL editing at 12:40, im in biomed again.... im so tiiiiiirrrredddd.... i slept in ELA but i was supposed to be finding sources for this paper i need to write but i fell asleep so obviously i couldn't do that.. but ill do it for homework. while im on the note of homework i have spanish homework, editing at 4:59 now... i was on the topic of homework- i have Biomed homework algebra homework and english homework..... yay... also have to finish that stupid research paper つ-﹏-⊂ whatever ill manage lol anyway school was not great.. i was soo drowsy all day which is so weird because i got more sleep than usual last night, but i feel like i was productive today (besides falling asleep for the entirety of ela lol) because i was really trying my best with the work i was doing. even though i felt productive and was doing my genuine best, i am as behind in work as i expected to be coming back from this break. i'm so bad at keeping up with work and assignments... but i'm pretty confident ill be able to bring myself back out of this funk and be able to get my grades up and all im a strong believer the biggest catalyst of failure is not believing in succeeding so i cant let it get to me :3 anyway after biomed i went to algebra and did the best i could with my work which im pretty proud because i got maybe 7 questions done? and im pretty confidenti got them right but i'm still scared for my final.. i had some yummy apples in the same class because they where just sitting around on the teacher's desk to take. anyway i went to health which was my last period... it was pretty relaxed, we talked about gender and sexual identity and stuff, kind of boring.. but after school me and a friend met up at a bus stop and we had a chat and a half and we had lots of fun just walking around and chatting :3 hi if you're reading this youre cool but we had foods and boba i really liked just sitting in the cafe it was really nice and atmospheric. i havent had fun with a friend since middle school, its really nice to just hang out with people, the idea never used to appeal to me but to me but to be fair i never actually ever had too many friends to gage if i liked hanging out or not. anyway.. decent day, pretty fun :P

01.08.26

today was such a drag... i was genuinely struggling to keep my eyes open in the first half of the day which seriously isnt making sense to me because i have been sleeping progressively earlier than i usually have in the past few weeks (after destroying my sleep schedule over winter break) but i end up being so exhausted during the day... ○|￣|_ oh well! i did pretty good in school even with that being said. My orchestra teacher has been out for a really long time but today and yesterday he was back, which has been super awesome because i like both him as a teacher and orchestra as a class, its definitely my favorite.. i was getting sooooo sleepy even though i was playing and focusing i dont know i think its something about the room... so cozy in there its always the perfect temperature and the environment is like super ambient, the instruments all over the room make it feel cozier for some reason.. im rambling(*＾-＾*） physics was somehow fun today... i usually dont enjoy it much, but i find that when i understand what i'm doing it actually gets me excited to do my work. spanish wasnt even that bad today, and if you as a reader have been looking at my blog for any amount of time you'll know i really cant stand that class but it was almost fun today. to be fair, it might've been me pavloving myself into having fun because i was convinced there was a test in spanish today so when i found out i was wrong it felt like weight off my shoulders. regardless, even if i was enjoying it i came really close to falling asleep until my spanish teacher yelled me out of it and i woke up. was kinda embarrasing つ﹏⊂.. i also was way too giggly in biomed, i love the table i sit at and how fun and silly the people there can be, but we seriously need to lock in..... the rest of the day was more than uneventful, i tried my best in algebra but i didn't get too far on the worksheet we where given. even so im pretty confident i got the answers right, i understood what i was doing and all. health was such a nothing burger... just talking about pubes and vaginas and penises it was a drag. anyway, the commute home was pretty nice, it always is and i always enjoy looking around on the train and bus and taking note of other people and also looking out the window and especially at this time of year enjoying the sunset since it sets earlier. i also just love being out in the winter, today was such a nice day weather wise... but probably not how it should've been. 50 degrees F in the dead of january isnt normal... anyway. calling my lovely hunk now (‾◡◝) i'm really hopinh i get to finish a lot of work today. wish me luck (￣﹏￣；) no photos 2day, sorryyy...

01.09.26

i dont know what is wrong lately.. like it doesnt matter HOW much sleep i get, i just cannot hold my head up the first few hours in school, i cant focus.....it makes it so hard to be in school =_= either way, besides the absolute sleepiness the first few hours, i really enjoyed orchestra, even if i felt like my mind was lagging behind my body and just kind of autopiloting. still, we sounded great (as always lol) and i loved playing my cello <3 on a harsher note i fucking hate my english class lol. i cant stand the c*nts in front of me ughhhh they genuinely ruin my day sometimes man. just fucking bullies who glare at you and stuff like you're the genuine dirt at the bottom of their shoe. I could preface this by saying, i get those weird looks all the time because i was recorded by a loser this one time i was catching a pigeon to bring it home and get this string off its foot, since i didnt have a scissor at the time... and no one seems to care anymore, but for some reason these people just find it so funny and cannot let it go. its just so annoying, i wish people made an effort to be mature and understand and be more empathetic, their lack of understanding is what causes such bitterness around them, and it just fosters everywhere like mold spores on agar agar. either way, despite that, i got lots of work doen :3 im quite proud of myself! i didnt do a WHOLE lot, but it was definitely significantly more than the past few days. i realized in global the research paper i finally FINALLY finished that i was so proud of was all wrong.. and ive got to fix so much of it.. but stll, i am happy with the fact i managed to get lots of it done at all. i had a spanish and algebra midterm today, spanish was honestly a breeze, i usually have no clue whats going on in that genuine hellscape of a class but i've been understanding the latest unit we're on, so it was easy > u < ! and honestly... im not expecting more from myself than a failure in algebra, but im pretty confident that even if i failed i would get a higher grade than usual and HOPEFULLY pass....... i was supposed to hang out with my legiterate blood twin today but my school is stupid and held them.. so i had to go home cuz it was getting late ╯︿╰ hopefully next week or this weekend :P baiiii

01.12.26

if anyone besides my boyfriend and twin read this blog, im sorry for not posting the past 2 days... i decided i wont be updating on weekends unless i just feel super motivated to, but im usually resting and spending time with my lovely boyfriend, and they always usually tend to be the same so there wouldn't be much to say. regardless... today was a pretty fine day :3 school was just okay, actually not that bad, i was REALLY productive in ELA, yay (～￣▽￣)～ got lots of work done... but as usual, i had a midday crash, and absolutely fell asleep in physics, when i woke up i had drool on my sleeve bru.... and the funny thing i wasnt even that tired or bored lol but either way.. biomed was so fun hehe i really luv all my friends as a whole <<33 they really lighten my mood and especially when im in biomed i realize it, like gosh i really missed having friends.. i love just really laughing over bullshit and just enjoying doing that theres no simpler pleasure in life in my opinion. maybe besides eating food.. foods pretty awesome :3€ regardless, i had to finish my algebra final........ it was partially graded already when they gave me it back, and holy smokes. i genuinely prayed when i finished the rest lol.. anyway ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ ill just be hoping i at least passed. after school my n my twan hung out, i dont think we really had a destination but either way it ended up being fun because ive found if theres any fun in hanging out with someone its about how fun the person youre hanging out with can make mundane things, not the experience around you itself. suffice to say i had lots of fun, it wasnt anything crazy, we went to a library, but about simple pleasures, whos to say a library cant be fun? i barely tried to study, but i just couldn't in a public setting, and we just took th train back to my home and had a stroll for like.. an hour? kind of gave me more of an appreciation for walking around, i usually dont care for it much unless im listening to music or im around nature. After all that i got to spend time with my lovely boyfriend <3 i didnt really realize JUST how much i missed his face until we started calling. still... it was a good day :-P no photos for today either, im sorry 3: i like taking photos of when im out, but unfortunately today's photos would be exposing of my identity and the identity of other people i know irl, and i like the sense of annonymity i have here... maybe tmorrow!! RIGHT editting this again after writting all this-- i got a super cool pair of jeans and a very nice harley davidson top off of depop hehehheheeeehehhe they finally cameeeee the jeans are sooo cozy- a little odd fitting, in the sense that the hem kind of cuts off at my ankle..? i like them to go all the way down to the floor, theyre a lil short for my liking but theyre still great :3 i also love the harley top bc its black and kinda like a tanktop but a button up, with a henley button up kind of situation in the front... ugh i love it sm, it also has beautiful embroidering on it, and this adorable pattern on the back. if i ever wear either ill post em here :3€ baiii fr now hehe

02.20.26

Sorry if anyone who may care about this blog is dissapointed in my month ish long dissapearance, i started feeling like my life was far too boring to blog about in such a way and anything i'd have to say about my own day to day life would be uninformative and plain. my life's been just decent as always but i have these depressive episodes that tend to make it really hard to enjoy life even when nothing BAD is really even happening to me. im very sick of being unable to feel fine 24/7. sorry to make everything so depressive... i know im usually cheerier here. so i guess, on a more upbeat note, a certain artist's music has been making me feel better: Oidopuaa Vladimir Oiun. My particular favorites from him are Have you seen Kodergen and How the Shadow is Clear, but the entire Divine Music from Jail album is genuinely just gorgeous. i knew these songs from stupid instagram reel memes, but i gained an appreciation of Oiun's music though my boyfriend who kind of put me on. either way.. i havent felt much emotionally lately and it gets like this when i start feeling all depressive for a while but im still eternally grateful for how music has always been the one outlier. it always manages to make me feel ANYTHING, but Oiun's music in particular lately has made me feel such admiration for the concept of music as a whole. I've only ever felt such awe over organ musical arrangements, i think they are one of the most beautiful instruments to grace this planet. anyway... i suppose i dont have a whole lot to say, even for being gone for such a solid amount of time. May continue to update again as regularly, but... who knows. Spring break is almost over, in the next two days. i enjoyed spending each day with my dearly beloved, but i miss going outside. either way, hope anyone reading has a great day :3